Thursday, April 30, 2009
又是“新”的？
哇
今天莫名地跑来了两个路人 ：
- 路人甲
- 路人乙
他们问了我一个很好笑的问题 ：
“你怎么啦~ 又是“
新”的一个？？！”
哇
很好笑咯
七早八早就给人抓来问这个烂问题
我问回他们 ：
“什么又是‘
新’的？”
他们说 ：
“乜~她咯~”
我说 ：
“嗨哟。。。她啊？是啊，“
新”的。 是新朋友啦！”
“刚认识的不叫“
新”的，难道叫“
旧”的吗？”
呵呵
笑到我肚子痛啦
这样都问得出来
你竟然开口问我了，
我没理由不答的吗~
现在你懂了吧？
现在你明了吗？
哈哈
我不介意你
再问的
只不过
我怕答案不一样了
哦？
又被我弄
乱了吗？
不用怕
我
就是要弄乱你而已
哈哈
哈哈
哈哈哈哈哈
没有啦
我没忘记她
我没放弃她
只不过
我觉得依然是朋友
已经算是很不错了
メ自愚娱人メ の小丑
Fight on 2:26 PM
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
祝。。。生日快乐
呵呵
有
人要生日了
对，没错
要 生日而已
这个
人啊~
要生日了~
不是今天，
而是明天。。。
开心到。。。
开心到我得现在
Blog给
她看
（因为hor，今晚我的keyboard & mouse又得还回去了）
怎样？
那我明天就
Blog不了了。。。
所以
先准备
祝福语等等。。。
传统些吧~生日快乐哦又大一岁了要乖乖听话不要淘气了嗯还要祝你
青春美丽啦
人见人爱啦
和蔼可亲啦
学业猛进啦
龙马精神啦
哎哟哟
太多了啦
等我打完
都天亮了
你
开心就好啦
记得啊
玩得不开心就不要停啊哈哈
希望你的梦想能实现
哈哈
希望你的生活会更好
哈哈
希望你的学业能进步
哈哈
希望你能天天都开心
哈哈
哈哈
哈哈
我都不知还能说什么
就“
写”首生日给你吧
祝你生日快乐
祝你生日快乐
祝莹生日快乐~
祝你生~日~快~了~
哈哈哈
写完啦
记得要唱哦
メ自愚娱人メ の小丑
Fight on 2:54 PM
Monday, April 27, 2009
know a girl , know a song
才上线不久
她就上线了
哈哈
不是“她”啦~
不过有谁知道她去了那里？哈哈
这是另一个她
我想应该没几个人认识她
因为。。。
她都不是和我们同校的
她呢？
她和我们一样
-血是红色的
-族是华人的
-语是华文的
不过。。。
她和我有还多一点的 similarities~
~图书管理员
~华文学会会员
~同样在中一时搬家+转校
当然
她也是一位 blogger
她不像其他人那样 spam post
*哪像我。。。spam post 好像不用时间+精神*
星期六：
我浏览她的 blogspot~
还没开始读 blogpost~
就被她的 mixpod 吸引了
里头有几首 bigbang 的歌
但我不会听啦。。。
不过唯有一首
“法克这个人 by 萧闳仁”
让我整个人傻眼
让我呆在荧幕前
让我联想到。。。!!@#$^&~*#^*$*&%#~ 的咚咚
之后
当我看了歌词
我觉得还不错
没有问题啊
是一首好歌
只是歌名有点“瞎”而已
自此，我每天都听这首歌
除此之外
我还和她聊了很久
明明就只能上线三小时的我
这是好像不被约束那样上线
聊了很多
聊到十一时
是时候说晚安了
彼此说了晚安就下线了
不知道为什么
我临睡前还要听
“法克这个人”
听完后就真的去睡了
星期日：
哈哈
今天和家人出街 另外我还知道有人去sunway哦~
去哪儿？
midvalley 而已啦
我爸说今天有的是时间
就带我们走 "long-cut"
为的是省那区区的 rm 1.30
哈哈
算了吧
是我爸在驾车
所以我不出声
哈哈
他带我们到 serdang , seri kembangan 那一带
在从那里的道路 去 midvalley
路上
我一定会盯着路牌不放
因为有天必须自己开车
所以
我现在先认路
对将来有用的
不过
看到 serdang / seri kembangan
这两个路名
我一直会联想到一个人
对没错
黎于文（她是我的戏剧 senior+朋友+华文学会 中五顾问）吗~
但其实
我想的人是 ----- 昨晚与我聊了很久的她
我在想
-她学校在那里？
-她会住在那里？
-她这儿搭巴士方便吗？
-她这儿有什么好玩的地方？
不过，我只是在 “想” 而已
我没有再做任何的东西了
当然啦。。。
在 midvalley 里头，我是不可能不碰电话的
还有谁
莫名其妙地跟我说：“我这里的气氛很僵”
我跟她说：“你都不专心，还跟我sms，你这样做当然会僵啦”
但是我很开心
她出借都会想到我这个 “不是很熟” 的朋友
我只能说： “加油吧你！！去享受你和他的一天~”
不久，她没回信了
因为，她的他来了
哈哈
enjoy yourself ba /~_~\
its hard to get a chance like this...
to meet each other \^o^/
.............
回家咯
没做什么特别的事
-喂我的宝贝- rock （狗）
-和家人看戏- 大喜事
-和妹妹 去上乐器课
回家吃晚餐
再上线
再等她
再聊天
说真的
要考试了，整个人玩什么都不起劲
我才刚说过 Bryan Choi
他说要考试了，不要陪我玩
但后来，我发现其实我也一样
没什么心情去玩。。。
无奈地。。。
我一个人。。。
听歌、听歌、还是听歌
八点+
她上线了
不过
得冲凉了
跟她说了一声
她说她得乘机会了
20分钟后
我们都做好自己的事
继续聊天咯~
聊了很多。。。
比昨晚更多。。。
最后
又到了十一时
又得说晚安了
又得听了首歌才入睡
晚安咯~莹^^
メ自愚娱人メ の小丑
Fight on 12:23 PM
Thursday, April 23, 2009
乌龟。。。何人。。？
乌龟本来就是一只很温顺的动物
它
生活的节奏比其他人来得慢
但
它生活得比他人都来得更好
不过
因为它生活得实在是太慢了
所以
它都跟不上它生活的节奏了
最后
它怠慢了它自己
慢地追不上时间
只好停下来
选择放弃了
对没错
我说着我自己
什么都慢慢来
什么都慢慢等
到最后
机会都溜走了
哭都来不及了
waited so long
missed so much
lost my chances
still thinking of her....
phebe
メ自愚娱人メ の小丑
Fight on 11:15 PM
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
word play...word sux...
juz b'cz i said some words...then i get a great consequences...lolz?wat went wRong...?nth went wRong...thats wat i think la...but in Real...there is smth wRong!!!lolz...too early to end my story~no fair ><but wat-2-doi end it myself...n i wanted to re-do it agin...lolz RE-do it?>?>?lolz yea..RE-do it..i try to re-consider my attitude and maybe my style-of-living?kakakazzeven my family cant stand on me XDthey dun understand wat i said at the 1st placeso i nid-2-prepare a long, dull, stupid explanation...then, the Bear-ly understood wat i explained...boi-ngiau~ i oso felt like : woot, m i reli sux in expressing my thoughts?boi-ngiau~ i think yes... if not, she oso wont so-ignore me la...kakaka XD re-do re-do re-do...phebe, sry yea...
its been 2 week since that day...
u n i still remain un-changed
the oni thing that changed
is our friendship...
its like a broken puzzle...
nid-2-re-do it agin...
give me time
give us time
avything will be juz fine as the begining~
メ自愚娱人メ の小丑
Fight on 3:55 PM
Saturday, April 18, 2009
林宥嘉 - 那首歌
不知道为了什么 忧愁它围绕著我
我每天都在祈祷 快赶走爱的寂寞
你要我听这一首歌 用这首歌离开我
她唱的太美了 歌词却很伤人
你为什么不直接提分手
爱人的话不需要重 轻轻的说我就懂
接你的车来了 表示爱到站了
我站在十字路口对抗心痛 一个人
你的黑发 现在睡进谁的胸口
你的唇 现在跟谁要温柔
一开始你爱我 最后你放弃我
还要用千言万语 说得委屈 你有多难过
爱牢牢抓紧我 恨深深包围我
你要我为你好 快赶走爱的寂寞
爱人的话不需要重 轻轻的说我就懂
接你的车来了 表示爱到站了
我站在十字路口对抗心痛 一个人
你的黑发 现在睡进谁的胸口
你的唇 现在跟谁要温柔
一开始你爱我 最后你放弃我
还要用千言万语 说得委屈 你有多难过
爱牢牢抓紧我 恨深深包围我
你要我为你好 快赶走爱的寂寞
爱牢牢抓紧我 恨深深包围我
你要我为你好 快赶走爱的寂寞
i was addicted to this song...
as usual
i was attracted by the lyrics...
regardless of the singer ,music ,company ,etc
"爱人的话不需要重 轻轻的说我就懂
接你的车来了 表示爱到站了 我站在十字路口对抗心痛 一个人"
hate to say this
this happens to me
Everyday...
yea~
Everyday...
ironically its the truth
lemme waited
lemme waked
lemme fall
lemme fail
メ自愚娱人メ の小丑
Fight on 7:18 PM
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Knowing more = Suffers more
hate to admit this
i love to
meet people around me
i love to
meet new people around me
i love to
meet more people around me
hate to admit this
meeting people will let us
know each other
knowing each other will
pull each other nearer
pulling each other nearer will
reveal our inner self
hate to admit this
getting inner self to expose...
no good at all...
but
no harm either...
hate to admit this
i don't want to get to know about so many things
knowing too much makes me suffer even more
i can't just forget all about this either
cause i just can't give up something that i already get a hold of it
yea you...
the one who love 1,2,3,4 a lot...
this post is dedicated to you and of cause me
CX
thinking of you makes me felt tired
giving you up makes me felt stupid
forgetting you makes me felt useless
suddenly, i felt so tiny...
too tiny to do anything for you & me
メ自愚娱人メ の小丑
Fight on 5:10 PM
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
planned or plainly coincidence
planned i wanted to ask her outi asked her
she answered
coincidence she wanted to go other placeshe refused
i'm fine with it
planned they agreed when, where to meetthey 3 always together
of cause 1 of them is extra
coincidence i always know when, where to meetthe 4th always not free
to intercept their conversation
planned i waited every timehe waited for her everyday
but she's always occupied
coincidence i saw them every time he accompanied her everyday
and she's always with him
so how?
nothing can be done
nothing can be changed
nothing can be improved
so, i am
planning for another
coincident我在
{yik how}
慢慢地等
默默地等
痴痴地等
等你有空
{ phebe }
陪我
メ自愚娱人メ の小丑
Fight on 5:13 PM
Sunday, April 12, 2009
xxx-less
mood -less
energy -less
emotion -less
confidence -less
mood -less
i sat on my plain old sofa
doing nothing
thinking something
energy -less
i sat on my plain old sofa
watching nothing
closing my eyes napping
emotion -less
i sat on my plain old sofa
enjoy nothing
grumbling everything
confidence -less
i sat on my plain old sofa
head's empty
felt pity
but on the second thought
its just
use -less
doing nothing
just thinking
watching nothing
just napping
enjoy nothing
grumbling everything
head's empty
felt pity
why can't i just take initiative
to prove her that
i'm not mistaken
of meeting her
i'm not mistaken
of falling on her
i'm not mistaken
of being with her
蔡忆施
*我不是没事跟着你*
*我只是想到要陪你*
メ自愚娱人メ の小丑
Fight on 10:04 PM
Friday, April 10, 2009
Pictures of You
full of
mood...
full of
energy...
full of
emotion...
full of
confidence...
with
these...
i draw...
i mean i
drew pictures...
i
drew pictures of
you...
not
your portrait...
but is what i can think of
you...
i will post these pictures one day...
but definitely NOT today
="= no keyboard ma...
difficult leh...
Phebe
please let me by your side
~silently
~quietly
~calmly
メ自愚娱人メ の小丑
Fight on 10:28 PM
Thursday, April 9, 2009
1000 Sorry~
all i can say...
all i wish to say...
all i wanted to say...
1000 SORRiesi can ONLY say this
to
you ~phebenot
her anymore
cuz i'm directing this to
you ~phebei rushed things too much
cuz i'm afraid of losing
you ~phebelets clear our mind for while
juz take
your time
~phebei'm not the best 1
you met so far
but
i think i'm capable of taking care of
you ~phebeメ自愚娱人メ の小丑
Fight on 3:53 PM
Friday, April 3, 2009
Blind Side?
i think i'm blind...
both physically & mentally blind-ed
i cant see what's in front of me
i cant see what's wrong with me
i cant think what's good for me
i cant think what's my next move
i cant take action rationally
i cant think rationally too
maybe this is the end
maybe a clown doesn't deserved
a story
a play
a role
a life...
i wish
i know what-to-do now
so that
she know what-do-do nextif you don't know
how should i know
メ自愚娱人メ の小丑
Fight on 5:48 PM
Congratulation
lolz...
i expected you to success
but not this early
lolz...
was joking la
good lo now
nice nice nice
now its my turn then?
well...
i hope YES
so please donT jinx me ><
i donT want to be a failure again~
really canT hold myself back right now
noT till i confessed myself
noT till i gave my effort
noT till i fell on floor
*i wonT give up*
メ自愚娱人メ の小丑
Fight on 4:16 PM
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Wow...time COOLs thingy down
lolz...if u check WHEN i post my blog...u shud see TIME / DATE / DAElolz...see the LAST 2 recent post before thisit was only 2 hours ...i oredi been cool-ed down to 0 Celsius...
so scr...during carnival reli nid to use me...XP im-possible labut then...impossible...can be read as...I'M-Possible!!!!everything is possible to happen or change without your knowingSO, be ready for anything or everything that happens SUDDENly oh~_~メ自愚娱人メ の小丑
Fight on 4:14 PM
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Point-LESS
Love you i canT
i canT love a person
who doesNT even love me
Hate you i canT
i canT hate a person
who doesNT even hate me
BUT...
I do LOVE YOU
just that you donT know about this
wish i can tell you more
wish i can know you more
wish i can be with you more
but there's a 'he' near by
メ自愚娱人メ の小丑
Fight on 6:02 PM
Clown's Part 2 : the Confusing
D'clown knows...
knows abt the prince
he'll NEVA forget abt him
he canT
if he DOES
he LOSE
Yep, a journey safety secured
she isn't get hurt or anything
juz in 1 piece
then how?
why i recall the last chapter?
cuz this time is abt the prince
he knows what the clown did
he knows it all
he felt un-easy
DAMN un-easy
Hey!
so what?
dun u think dat the clown will be jz like u
if u did this to him?
DID the prince CRied?
Clown duno abt this then
Prince knows
The clown knows this :
"i'm juz a river, not a rival"
WHY he THINKs like THIS?
clown knows that if he FAILs
prince will get a head of him
a fast-current river
that can rush anything downhills in split seconds
the Prince will use the 'river' to meet the princess
cuz WHAT?
cuz the river gave him a
PUSHa strong and yet painful
PUSHWHAT for?
for him...for her...
=to be continue=
I' AM CONFUSEd
i duno why this stroy become like this
this isNT the story i wanted...
i HATE this story now
but what-to-do?
i still have to finish this story
more and more ppl starting to know abt the clownthen how?nothing much-to-dolet them knowlet them decidebut...from how they respondthe clown knows his good-for-nothing"shouldn't the Princess be with the Prince instead of the Clown?"
"why a clown have a part to play out of sudden?"
"since they Princess & Prince already have their part to play..."
"no no no, the clown won't win this...."
"Prince never lose...."
WHAT THE HELL YOU PEOPLE THINKING????
do u guys even hav BRAIN????
who say a clown can't play a part
who say a clown can't win
who say a clown can't be with the princess
メ自愚娱人メ の小丑
Fight on 4:03 PM
